People always ask, "How do you guys find stuff to talk about on the show?" and our response is, "We just talk about our crazy lives!" For example, I was having a conversation off the air with Fitz, Tony and Randy that went something like this:
I'm turning 30 and planning a destination party in Vegas. I know not all of my friends and family will be able to come. Would it be weird if I set up a GoFundMe account for people to donate to the party? If they can't come, I think it'd be great if they threw in a buck or two to help make that weekend great.
We brought that conversation to our loyal P1's during the show this morning and a few listeners even said, "It's no different than when couples ask for help funding their honeymoons." While others told me it was totally tacky!
Then I wondered just how easy is it to set up such an account and wow! It was maybe a little TOO easy because within less than 60 seconds I had created a GoFundMe page. I posed the question on Facebook and the responses started rolling in.
While I thought I had made my intentions clear, unfortunately, I hadn't. Most of the comments were negative. You all wondered why on earth I would beg for money for something so frivolous. You doubted why we would even bring it up when there are many more deserving causes. You all had great points.
Let me make it clear that I was, in no way, soliciting for money. I am a firm believer in the saying "Perception is reality," and unfortunately for me, they way that I meant it and the way it was perceived were horribly different and I take responsibility for that. In the few hours that the GoFundMe page was live, $80 was donated and I have reimbursed every dollar.
In April, I vowed to raise $1000 to help those fighting cancer and benefit the Fred Hutchinson Cancer Research Center. I'm doing the 25-mile bike ride, otherwise known as Obliteride next month and would love your support once more.
Click the banner above to donate to one of the many worthy causes that are way more important than a destination birthday party.
All in all, while I don't believe my initial intentions were bad, we let it turn into a horrible mess. I'm sorry. Hopefully now you better understand my intentions, forgive me for my faults, and help those that are truly in need.
In order to move forward, we must first look back. I've got to understand and accept why and how I've gotten to this point. Sad, lonely, insecure. A little over a year ago, I wrote an unapologetically real and uncensored post about exactly what raced through my head. Actually, I shouldn't use the past tense. These words still race through my head. Below are a few exceprts from that post. (To read it in its entirety, click HERE. My Personal and Private Struggle with Weight, Body Image, and Self-Confidence)
The extra pounds I carry might as well be a neon lit sign shining brightly that screams, "I'm not in control!"
I've put off life experiences because I think I'll be able to enjoy them more without this extra weight.
My weight is a physical barrier for the emotional wall I've put up, especially with men.
My confidence shield is just a show. Yes, I have a lucrative job. Yes, I'm an independent woman. And yes, I'm funny from time to time. But don't mistake any of that for confidence. I'm not confident at all.
My outside, my fat exterior, screams that I'm scared, unhappy, and extremely self-conscious. That makes my inside ugly and weak and no one wants to be around that, including me.
Truthfully, I can't bring myself to read the entire post. It takes me back to a place I never thought I'd be at again but after a rollercoaster of emotions during the past month, here I am. In my own personal hell.
I got in the right mindset. I got my diet right. I got back together with a trainer I trusted. A friend who I could I let my guard down with. But after less than a month, he stopped showing up. He stopped answering my calls. He completely stopped.
It makes me so sad. Why did he give up on me? I worked hard. Why didn't he? My nightmare came true. Not only was he my trainer. He was my friend. And he dropped me. He didn't care. He doesn't care. Screw him. I care.
Below you'll hear a clip from the morning radio show I co-host. This is the most real radio I've done, ever. Listen as I share about my recent disappointment and my cry for help.
So what now? After that clip aired, I was bombarded with messages from friends and strangers alike. I read every tweet, email, and text. I was overwhelmed but through it all, I discovered a couple of new potential trainers. This week I'll be meeting with them and planning my new route to success.
This journey is about making yourself happy. The only way to be happy a week, a month, a year from now is to simply start today. Be happy with one day. Go to bed tonight knowing you accomplished one day because that's all it takes to start! Just one day.
Please stay tuned for more "Weight Loss Wednesday" posts and in the meantime, you'll still get what you expect from this blog. More "What's Ellen Tailor Wearing" photos, favorite beauty products, and more.
Thank you for sharing this journey with me.
To ready Weight Loss Wednesday #2 and to meet my trainer, click HERE.
Kendall Jones is a 19 year-old cheerleader from Texas Tech University and some may describe her as hot, but she is in hot water with a lot of animal lovers thanks to her Facebook page. Her page called Kendall Takes Wild has pictures with her and a lion, a leopard, an elephant, a warthog, and cheetah, a rhino and much more…oh yeah…and they are all dead…and Kendall is the one who shot them. The pretty little cheerleader has been going on safaris since she was 13 years old. There are many online petitions to ban her from Facebook, but there are also 114,000 likes on her page. Kendall has done nothing illegal.
Thanks to the P1 who reminded me of this great color!!! OPI's My Chihuahua Bites is great for summer. It was hiding in the back of my polish collection and I'm glad I rediscovered it. What are you favorite summer colors?
I think I took more selfies with the Super Bowl ring than Greg Scruggs has! Greg is a defensive end for the Seahawks, my co-host on the Beauty & The Champ podcast, and most importantly, my friend. Listen to our podcast for an inside look about what really happened the night they got their rings. Go Hawks!
New season, new 'do! HUGE shout out to Susie at the UVillage Gene Juarez for doing such amazing work. For the first time in my life, I'm going light and I couldn't be more excited. Click HERE for more photos.
It's Monday and this clutch says it all...STRESSED!
The otherside has a much better quote.
Click HERE to see it and to read more about my outfit and weekend.
Top - Target
Clutch - Poshmark
Nails - China Glaze "Surfin' For Boys"
If you don’t know, Poshmark is a website and app where you can buy & sell clothes. Click HERE to shop my closet and other items that have been featured on my blog. If you haven’t signed up for Poshmark yet, use the code HFZCI for a $5 credit!
So maybe you're not a dress girl. I get that. How about a fun vintage inspired hippie top like these? Imagine that fringe waving in the wind as you rock out to your favorite country songs at the Hometown Throwdown next weekend. These tops are all at Plato's Closet in Bellingham. Don't forget to pick up a fun jacket to pair it with just in case the dreaded June Gloom drops some rain on us.
There's plenty locations in our area with tons of great finds at each store. Get the most up-to-date info about Bellingham's outfits or Plato's fashion finds on Facebook. Follow them on Twitter and Instagram, too!
What girl doesn't love SHOES! Give your wallet a break and check out Plato's Closet for deals on shoes and everything else you need to fill your closet. I spotted these at the Bellingham location. There's plenty locations in our area with tons of great finds at each store. Get the most up-to-date info about Bellingham's outfits or Plato's fashion finds on Facebook. Follow them on Twitter and Instagram, too!